When I received the Holy Spirit inside me

After all the signs that God gave me I knew that I wanted be Born Again and filled with the Holy Spirit and have this great connection with our Lord. So, I went to see my brother and ask him a couple last questions and I just knew that it was time for me. As he answered my questions I told him that I wanted to Born Again and I truly believed that Jesus could take all my sins away from me and that I am forgiven because Jesus went on the Cross for all that wants to believe. We are all Gods children but we just need to find our way to him. We need him in our lives to truly feel love and I didn’t realize that until I was filled with the Holy Spirit and my connection to our True Father God… My brother that day told me that he and his wife were going to pray over me and speak in tongues and that I needed to believe. When they were praying over me, the only thing that was going through my mind is that I wanted to be near God. I didn’t know what to expect when they stopped praying over me because I’ve heard of some people actually passing out or falling to the floor. I was sitting there and when they finished I felt like all my sins that I ever had was lifted and my body felt very drained. I didn’t feel like I wanted to jump up and down yet but my brother told me that I should speak in tongues and I did right away. He explained it to me in a perfect way of why I should speak in tongues. He told me that God wants us to speak in tongues because of course he is speaking to us but also its like when my daughter was a year old and started saying words and how I was so excited that she could talk to me. That’s how God feels about all of us when we are speaking in tongues because not only is he talking to us but we are speaking in tongues only for him because we love him and we want him to guide us in the way that he wants us to be. So, I went home and I felt still drained but I felt a sense of relief. I went to sleep and woke up the next day and felt like have never felt before. I was light as a feather and so happy with so much love for everybody. I couldn’t remember why I was mad at any one at all. It is the most beautiful feeling in the world. I was trying to speak in tongues with every opportunity that I could get. Now I had this connection with God (our Father), that I could actually feel and it was amazing. I felt like God filled my empty spots that I had in my life. I wanted to go out of my house and shout at the top of my lungs how great it feels to have Jesus in our lives. I didn’t do it because I know that at that moment there would be a lot of people in my life that would try to change my mind so I needed to be stronger in my faith before I could tell anyone that didn’t believe as I do.

My last sign before I got Born Again…

This last sign is a little hard to explain but I will try my best. Ever since I was a little girl I used to get these really bad dreams (at least I thought they were dreams). I would wake up in my bed but I wouldn’t be able to move or speak until whatever was happening to me was over. I will tell a couple different examples. When I was a child I would wake up in my bed (in my room) and couldn’t move but could see a big dark shadow of a monster coming on top of me and I don’t know how long it would last but it felt like forever. When this monster of a shadow was done scarying me then I could actually get up from the bed and run out of my room screaming. I would wake up thinking that there was something in my bed moving and my mom would check but nothing. My parents would always tell me that it’s just a night terror and that I have to believe that it doesn’t exist. I’m sure that they thought that I (being a child) was having bad dreams, well these attacks at night would happen until recently. I started just believing that these attacks that I was getting were just bad night terrors and that my brain had to be playing tricks on me because how could it really be true that I’m waking up in my room (frozen) and i have these dark shadow things attacking me. I learned that when they would happen I would try to just close and open my eyes many times and it seemed to work because in my head I would say that this is not real (repeatedly). So, I’m not sure when this particular night attack happen but this one lasted a long time. My husband and I have a Cross with Jesus on it, in our bedroom, on the side of the wall where I sleep. Now, this is going to sound really crazy but when I would wake up this time I wasn’t getting attacked instead I would have my eyes on the Cross but Jesus was changing into images of something evil and scary. Like now my attacks were against Jesus and whatever it was, it was trying to make to believe that Jesus was really a monster. Of course I would open and close my eyes as usual and think that whatever this is, its not true and then I would see Jesus back on my wall. So glad to see Jesus again.. So getting back to my last sign. I was talking to a couple of different people when I was getting my signs and over heard someone tell a story about how he used to get attacked in the middle of the night by bad spirits and when he explained his attacks they sounded almost exactly like mine. I asked him questions about it and thought he had to be having night terrors because how can we really get attacked by bad spirits. He made me realize that bad spirits do exist (by my first sign with my daughters dream from God) and the bad spirit was trying to convince me that Jesus was bad. When the thought that I was getting attacked at night by evil spirits, it really scared me but my brother told me that God was going to show me a sign that I’m safe. Now, still wasn’t born again yet so I didn’t still know what to believe but that night I went home and of course I didn’t tell any of this to my husband because he would of thought I was nuts. I wanted to make sure I truly believed before I talked to my husband about it because he was raised Catholic all his life and it would be hard for him to understand something like this. Back to that night, I was getting ready to go to sleep and I have to say I was so scared to wake up  to an attack because I knew than that they are real now but something interesting happen. I woke up scared as usual and but this time before I could get attacked my daughter came into my bed (at that exact time I opened my eyes) and I could move (to my surprise), let her in the bed and put my arms around her but all of a sudden I felt safe like nothing could touch me or hurt me. It was the craziest feeling ever but I knew that it must of been God to send my daughter in my room at that time to show me I’m safe with him and God loves me very much that he has given me all these signs. I will say that my daughter would come into my bed all the time but somehow it was different that time. I was convinced and I talked to my brother and told him that I was ready to get born again and I wanted to feel the greatness of having a connection with God, like I searched all my life for. Thank you God our Father. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Holy Spirit…. 🙂

Another sign that God gave me…

After God gave me that sign through my daughter I started to talk to my mom and brother more and started asking a lot of questions. I really wanted to have this connection with God but I was still skeptical about what they were saying about me having to be born again and filled with the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues. One part that I had a hard time with was speaking in tongues because I seriously didn’t understand and thought that it had to be something evil (not good) but of course, I was wrong because God showed me that it is in the Bible. So let me tell you how he showed me. Every night i used to sit on the floor of my kids room and wait for them to go to sleep and usually I would have my phone and either play a game or shop online. I would like to say that it was probably 2 or 3 days after my first sign that I was doing my usual sitting on the floor waiting for my kids to go to sleep and in my head I kept hearing something like “go to the Bible and read Acts“. I couldn’t understand why I kept hearing this in my head because I didn’t know much of the Bible and didn’t even know if there was a chapter called Acts in there. So I tried to somehow ignore what I was hearing because to me it didn’t make sense but finally I decided to put a Bible app on my phone and look and see if there really was a chapter called Acts. To my surprise the voice in my head was right and the two verses that stood out for me when I started reading were Acts 1:5 FOR JOHN BAPTIZED WITH WATER, BUT IN A FEW DAYS YOU WILL BE BAPTIZED WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT. ACTS 2:4 ALL OF THEM WERE FILLED WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT AND BEGAN TO SPEAK IN OTHER TONGUES AS THE SPIRIT ENABLED THEM. I was in shock because only God could of been in my mind telling me to go and read these chapters. I was amazed and then knew that God was giving me these signs and that I really could have a connection with God. God needed to show me one more sign before i could be saved and I will tell you next time… 

Born Again Spirit Filled


When my dad passed away, it was hard, but not as hard as I thought it would be. I guess, I felt that he went to Heaven because I know he believed in Jesus. Of course, I wanted to be selfish and keep him on earth with me but I know that now he is in Heaven and he is so happy and has no pain ( he had so much depression and pain from his heart problems ). About a month later, I found out that I needed to do tests because I might have cancer. I was very upset because the thought of having cancer and possibly dying scared me. It scared me because I truly didn’t have the connection to God like I thought I should have. One thing I always believed that everything happens for a reason whether its good or bad. I believe that God doesn’t give us more than what we can handle but we also have to learn from the situations that we are in. So, I prayed and prayed that even if I had cancer that I would be ok and that my family would have the strength to go through whatever it was. I was very lucky to find out that I didn’t have cancer and I thanked God for that. Having this little scare I decided to listen a little to my mom and brother about their stories of being born again and filled with the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues. I’ll be honest I thought that speaking in tongues was something evil but I found out with the help of Gods signs to me that speaking in tongues is a beautiful thing.

MY FIRST SIGNS FROM GOD

It started when my brother was telling me that we are all getting attacked every day from evil spirits. Also that in my house my 5 year old daughter wasn’t getting attacked because she has a very close connection to God. (I will tell you more of how my daughter loves Jesus and has a close bond to God). My self, husband and son had bad spirits attacking us all the time. Well, I thought my brother was crazy. Yes, I thought that bad spirits are out there in the world but I didn’t think that they were attacking my family. He also told me that God will show me himself that this is true. I can’t remember exactly if it was that night or the next but my daughter told me that she had a dream that was so real to her and that she could remember all of it. My daughter could never remember her dreams that she had, even now. Her dream in her words was: she was in some kind of cave holding a baby wolf in her arms and mommy, daddy and her brother were out side of the cave fighting off a bear, a big foot and wolves. She felt very safe holding the wolf but she could see that we were getting hurt from the bad creatures. After she told me that, I was in shock. I couldn’t believe that she had a dream exactly about what my brother told me. I knew than that God could of been the only one to give my daughter that dream because I didn’t even talk at home about what I heard from my brother because I seriously thought that he was wrong. I have many more signs to tell that led me to get born again…..

THE BEGINNING

I would like to start by telling you a little about me. I have been born again and spirit filled since June of 2012. I’m married with two beautiful children that God Blessed me with. I’m very Blessed to have a husband that is not born again but tries to be understanding on what I choose to believe in. I do hope that one day he will get born again and spirit filled but I have tried talking to him many times and I have figured out that God will have to show him. All my life, ever since I was a little girl I always wanted to be close to God and I never quite found that connection that I was looking for. I’ll be honest, I used to try and read the Bible (before being filled with the Holy Spirit) and always had a hard time understanding it. I didn’t know much about the Bible besides what I would learn from church and that wasn’t much because I would only go when it was a holiday. So every year it seemed like it was the same thing over and over. I still felt like I wasn’t getting anywhere with God but I would still pray, hope and wish that God could hear me. I had my mom and brother that were born again spirit filled already at that time and they would try to tell me how wonderful if feels to be filled with the Holy Spirit and how much God (our true and everlasting father) and Jesus love us. Of course , I didn’t believe them for years because the kind of stories that my mom would tell me couldn’t of really happened (now I know that Gods power is still on earth with all of us). Well, I can tell you that I started getting more curious about being born again after my dad in 2011 had a lot of medical problems and the doctors were telling us time after time that we needed to be ready for him to pass away. My dad got saved a little time before he died and I’ll never forget how he said he felt when he got filled with the Holy Spirit and the love he felt after. He said he felt like he was lifted in the air because God took all of his bad things out of him. My father was always up front about everything, so when he told me this, it made me start listening a little. I was so happy that my father believed and got saved (within a couple of weeks of dying). That was such a Blessing. This is how I got curious…

God Holding Baby Jesus

God Holding Baby Jesus

My daughter is 6 years old and she drew this picture one day telling me that this is God holding Jesus as a baby. Also she told me that God has his arms open with love for anyone that wants to go to him. She colored yellow all around God because she told me that in Heaven its all shiny and sparkly. My daughter has a great love for God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

Hi everyone, My name is Toni and i’m born again and spirit filled.

This is the first time I have ever blogged and I’m not a good writer but I feel like God wants me to do this so I can share my story of how I got born again and how my journey has been since it happened. I will be writing a little bit each day about how God showed me the way to him. I truly believe I have a great connection to God that I never had before I got filled with the Holy Spirit. I hope that when I start my story tomorrow that when you read it, you will find guidance, encouragement, love and sincerity. These are things that God has been teaching me that we should all have with one another. I’m excited about this message and hope you enjoy it..